You’re making problems for the both of us. You’re twisting things around and making misunderstandings. We don’t know each other that well, and it’s making things hard for the both of us. I don’t think we can be together if things are going to be like this because it’s either one or the other, and you usually make sure that it’s in your favor. I need to stop being passive. I don’t care if I get hurt anymore; I think I would like that, even if it doesn’t get the point across. Maybe I should just let you keep doing what you’re doing, maybe that will get my point across. I think I could handle letting things end that way. It’s not like would matter anyway; no one knew who I was anyway.

I’m going to be selfish one day and make you miss me. 

I wish I remembered the last time I slept well, the last time I didn’t wake up earlier than I was supposed to. I want to be able to sleep well without a supplement. People think I sleep well, but I don’t. I’ve even hinted it and flat out said it a few times, but they just don’t get it. I want to be able to fall asleep again after I wake up. I want to wake up not feeling tired. I don’t need to feel refreshed, I just don’t want to be tired. 

I’ve been awake for 20 hours. I am still incredibly calm, but I still have a paper to write. What is wrong with me right now?